I can feel it inside me clearly:
the awakening of feelings that
derived from deep and listen
with ears while I can
observe with the mind's eye.
The silence has a noise or sound
endless, continuous
that echoes in my ears but
especially in the head.
I open my eyes and I hear like a steady hum
and constant that I get from one point to inaccurate
of nowhere.
I feel inside me
the clash of mighty waves
but I keep wanting to emerge
locked for too long.
My heart is exploding and blood
I feel it boil.
Thoughts emerge from silence,
thoughts, words, ideas, problems,
anything that travels at the speed
light in my brain.
I can not see or understand any of
everything
because they are too fast and inaccurate.
I see something rather than clear that it is always
was from the beginning, is
something that identifies me
in my being: I am.
The always see me from inside my body
be a figure almost as mistress of a physical
that command, and I continue to observe
because I feel sometimes detached from the mind
and from the heart as it works in its anatomy and
all its complexity.
How strange!
The look in the mirror it's like to dive
within myself.
Enter into a world I already know where
the moments that follow are past
present and future
but all garbled and inaccurate.
I am not able to see me happy
or satisfied in any of the three cases.
Break, I hear this crack
within myself.
The sound of rock landslide that leads
anything with his impetuous force in
valley.
A dam breaks, which breaks the bulkheads,
the water is rife everywhere,
you can not stop her unstoppable force,
goes beyond the known limits of the mind.
Where should I take refuge but
instead emergo so as usual
through my writing dramatic,
sentimental, romantic, overwhelming,
useless, sensible;
terms that come out from my memory
where they reside
memories past and present.
The headache grows in intensity
and behold, the eyes tend to close
and the ability intellective decreases.
When? Now?
I think not!
The words to be written out
like a river in flood
also meaningless
tangled in thoughts
meanings to which I want to make sense of
although often there is not.
My past life: here it is!
Nothing could be more innocent than
a child playing with everything and
lives unaware of the dangers and problems
whereas since his subconscious
knows that person might be.
Become a kid and then an adult and no
step is not done
except in the cultural sense.
That's out of the blue
which coincides with the awakening of chaotic events
strange that I can not go back
and yet fragmented memory.
Fragments of memories important
staying there
in that place where I do not allow anyone
to enter even if
in the end my heart is too good
and subjected to external forces that do
suffer in any way.
My brain instead
is impenetrable,
a large gate insurmountable.
And there's only one person who enters and exits
continuously controlling more
it's the only one: my dignity
together with my pride of life.
I can not claim to be perfect
in fact I have gaps in anything
as in the normal range of each.
My head is the realm of chaos
I do not doubt but
How many ideas and especially
how many emotions it shares with the
my soul deeper.
Being impartial,
diplomatic and thoughtful
has caused me to become
more sure of myself
with others,
among others.
Even though my body sometimes comes off
completely
from my soul and
from my head creandomi
disastrous physical effects
but not serious to solve in which
a short time.
I'm not a wrapper that contains only my soul
and my head
not only contains a brain
living can think of.
But I have a whole
between brain, mind, heart, soul,
physical
with which I sometimes detachment,
you'll wonder how it is possible,
but are like God,
that governs the chaos of these 5 elements
and which I use to live but
alas I can not always achieve happiness
just because I have to understand
and soon we will be able to
I also collaborate with outside elements,
natural,
my parents have created but
first of all the nature
created everything and everyone
and from there I have to learn that
I can not detaching
but rather work
because doing so can
take my place in life
and live it fully in all
its nuances
both beautiful and ugly.
Right now they are only a very small
percentage of co-operation with it.
But I want to expand it more and more
because I do not know if we are alone in the universe
but helping nature
I want to bring out
all my strength
and energy and pass it on
the entire universe
so that other forms of life
can steal and use.
We're just a means
which nature offers us
one life to live and invites us
to share best with herself
and all other living beings.
That noise in the silence that
I often hear
is nothing but the call of my
soul that propagates in the external environment
in harmony with everything and everyone
and this means that our happiness can
infect others and make them live
well everywhere.
Boundless energy and limits
escaping from ourselves to others.
there I fixed this for others
and make myself available for the next
but for now
is too closed in on me
I can not bring it out completely, but there is.
Quivers feel!
Unfortunately, my mental limits
do not allow
to act as it should.
I first and foremost from the inside I can not
import it to the brain as a system,
or to the mind as a solution for everything.
My heart would very much appreciate
but for now they are too far away from doing so
then I just have to stay close
to my soul
and continue to work
to emerge more and more,
convinced that sooner or later
shall flourish
I also like a flower
and then I pour
all my good on others.
One thing is very important
my constant struggle between my demon negative
me and angel inner positive.
Are often not able to retain the demon
and tilts the balance of moral
on negativity but I try anyway ternerla
increasingly segregated into a corner.
Negativity is everywhere but we must make sure
traformarla of positive energy in passing from the mind
because the only way we can control our demons
and who knows if we may live happily ever after
together with our values ??and principles.
Certainly, however, that in my reflections
I try to be as explicit as possible
but when I dive into myself
I have not certainties.
Everything breaks even the laws that I
govern precisely because they are in continuous evolution
and always try to improve myself to the fullest.

Marco Samaritani Comacchio '85